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I come from a small town, enjoy laughing and being the weird one to help others smile. We should hang out sometime.

Friday, June 24, 2016

Sometimes life just gets you down. Everything will be going alright and then, suddenly at night, you can be freight trained by depression. That's alright. Each night has a dawn. If we never experienced sadness, how could we experience joy? They are yin and yang. This just really hit me hard just recently. Everything is fine, I just found myself loathing my existence. I had such a feeling of futility, that no matter what I do it never matters. It's completely ridiculous thought process (or lack thereof), but I found myself there. Then there are the little things, the little victories. Ran into a friend at the store and he remarked on how I looked better, skinnier. Later on I gave myself a good looking at in the mirror and you can bet your boots that I was looking better. It really wasn't much, but I felt better. Knowing that all this work I've been putting into myself has been paying off, that's great. I feel so much more free now that I've stopped trying to impress everyone else, and just work on my own opinion of myself. I'm nowhere close to where I want to be, but I've certainly jumped from where I started.